It seems ages since I've been able to sit down and blog about something I just want to get off my chest. It 'has' been ages. I've had an awful lot going on here with myself, my crazy brain and my kids, hubby etc. It seems like mentally I'm somewhere else right now. There's too much to even put down on here without being all week typing and to be frank most of it is my own personal demons and I need to sort out myself so I can concentrate on other things.
I promise I will get there soon and will start to write a bit more upbeat posts now and again.
As for now, the anniversary of my friends death is fast approaching and as with every year for some reason unknown to my brain it plays in there for weeks before hand and after. I never know quite how to deal with the day, ignore it and hope it goes away quickly or mark it somehow? Some years I've gone and put flowers at the crash site and tried to feel close to him but that never seems to work. He was cremated so no grave to visit. Its a quandry that will haunt me until the 11th of August and beyond.
As for the kids, they are getting so big so fast and I feel a bit like its slipping past too fast at the moment without me noticing the next stages. Time slowing down for a little while would be nice.
One day I 'will' feel like the old me again and think of something fun and positive to write about. Meantime bear with me.
Sunday, 17 July 2011
Saturday, 9 July 2011
Tuesday, 5 July 2011
The Perfect Holiday
I've been absent on Blogger due to being away on holiday in heaven itself.
We went to Newquay in Cornwall and quite frankly it is now my most favourite place in the world EVER!
It's clean, hot, bright, beautiful, friendly (with out being intrusive), sandy, surfy, and generally full of amazingly HOT surfer dudes and amazing places to eat, drink and generally be entertained. My own personal Utopia. I want to live there forever. We stayed 100 yards from Fistral Beach which was adorned daily with hundreds of surfers and sunbathers and we loved it. We also found a fabulous bar that overlooks the harbour with a softplay and completely child friendly called 'The Fort Inn'. We had lovely lunches there on the balcony and Caleb made lots of little friends in softplay.
Things I learnt and will stay with me is hairbrushing/straightening and general faffing is worthless. Hairbrushes are now the enemy and ankle bracelets and general adoring of cheap jewellery makes you bright cheerful and feel Cute.
Here's some piccies of our stay. Looking at them has made me melancholy.
All in all the best place ever to go on holiday or live. I want to go back right now please.
We went to Newquay in Cornwall and quite frankly it is now my most favourite place in the world EVER!
It's clean, hot, bright, beautiful, friendly (with out being intrusive), sandy, surfy, and generally full of amazingly HOT surfer dudes and amazing places to eat, drink and generally be entertained. My own personal Utopia. I want to live there forever. We stayed 100 yards from Fistral Beach which was adorned daily with hundreds of surfers and sunbathers and we loved it. We also found a fabulous bar that overlooks the harbour with a softplay and completely child friendly called 'The Fort Inn'. We had lovely lunches there on the balcony and Caleb made lots of little friends in softplay.
Things I learnt and will stay with me is hairbrushing/straightening and general faffing is worthless. Hairbrushes are now the enemy and ankle bracelets and general adoring of cheap jewellery makes you bright cheerful and feel Cute.
Here's some piccies of our stay. Looking at them has made me melancholy.
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| The House we rented |
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| At the Fort Inn |
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| The rocks at Fistral |
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| Fistral Beach and Lifeguard tower |
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| Erm....... moving on |
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| We found the most immense cake shop which made marshmallows on sticks. |
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| cheers |
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| Newquay Harbour |
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| Paddling |
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| Beach fun |
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| Surfs up dudes |
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| After a hard day at the beach |
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| This ended badly in sunburn. |
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| At Moo Mooz for pancakes |
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| Caleb made a friend |
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| The back garden at the house |
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| Beach jewellery is the way forward |
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| Cornish pasties at the harbour for lunch |
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| Our for breakfast |
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| Having a day playing in the garden |
Wednesday, 22 June 2011
Saturday, 18 June 2011
One to Make me smile
So after so much said about the person I miss how about a post about the person I'm married to.
In my last post I let you hear a song that reminds me of S. Well how about one that makes me smile as the words describe my husband and how we felt when we met. We had this as our first dance not as we're fans. We just didn't want the usual slow song to start the night off and we loved it.
Still love him ya know. Even if I don't say it enough.
In my last post I let you hear a song that reminds me of S. Well how about one that makes me smile as the words describe my husband and how we felt when we met. We had this as our first dance not as we're fans. We just didn't want the usual slow song to start the night off and we loved it.
Still love him ya know. Even if I don't say it enough.
A song to remember by
My last post was so maudlin so if you are of a sobby disability like I am look away now.
Five years after my friend was killed I was clearing out some of my own clothes and found a few of his in amongst it. I remember sitting looking through the pockets of his denim jacket and found some things he had in them. It was the hardest thing I had to do. I had MTV on at the time and this song was playing. It wasn't the jacket that got me or his things in the pockets, it was the song. I sat on the floor of my bedroom crying for a loooooong time.
Anyway, this week I've been struggling a lot with missing him and lay listening to old songs last night before I went to sleep. This came on and made me teary eyed but smile too.
Thought I'd share it as its such a fabulous song. Enjoy.
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